I envy people who’ve got it together. I’m not talking about the people who’ve got life figured out and are living perfectly happy all the time (lets face it, I’m pretty sure that isn’t even possible). What I’m talking about are those people who know what their passion is in life. The ones who know what they love to do and work hard to make it happen. I’ve got a sense of the person I want to be (yoga guru, real food enthusiast, vintage lover, successful gardener and happy minimalist among other things…) but what I want to do? That’s a different story.
Do I love any one topic/subject/field enough to dedicate my life to it? Doesn’t seem like that’s the case. At this point in my life I’m kind of okay with that I mean, we can’t all be Evan’s who’ve been obsessed with weather since childhood so naturally, they peruse a degree in meteorology… I mean isn’t that why vague degree programs exist? For those who have no clue but feel they need a degree regardless? I’m a supper driven person so I’m always working really hard in some direction or other but after realizing that I wasn’t interested in law school (at least not for the foreseeable future), I feel like I’ve been driving blind for the past few years.
I have been working hard to broaden my future career prospects volunteering, working, and interning in all kinds of fields through undergrad and now grad school but honestly, I have no idea what I want to do or even what I have to offer to the world.
Earlier this week Evan and I took his sister out to practice parallel parking for her driving test in a few weeks. When we got to the parking lot and set up the cones Evan and I teamed up to do our best instructing. His sister totally rocked it (in spite of Evan and I arguing on the sidelines about who was the better at parallel parking) and helping her helped me to recognize that while parallel parking isn’t a supper glamorous or extraordinarily sought after skill to have, I’m not half bad at it. I’m not a totally skill-less person!
In all honesty though, I’m a great student but I’m definitely looking forward to being finished with school (at least for the next few years) and really starting my life. I hope that someday I’ll enjoy whatever job I settle into but at this point I’m thinking that regardless of the job I get, the goal is to work to live, not live to work. I’ve got big ideas about the life I want to lead, not about the job I want to have. I’ve just got to believe that it’ll all work out in the end…and that I’ve got more marketable skills then parallel parking.